sometimes i cry about it and thats ok

I sometimes can't believe how long its been...

i sometimes can't believe I would ever do anything to anyone that is unforgivable...

i sometimes can't believe i still send your sorry ass chocolate covered treats for your birthday.

i sometimes can't believe you cant find anything to love about me.

i sometimes cant believe i cry about you

i sometimes can't believe i would ever want to be friends with someone who cant simply forgive and move on.

i sometimes can't believe my husband only has 5 family members

i sometimes can't believe that you would rather hold a grudge than make everyones life brighter.

i sometimes hold ALL OF THIS INSIDE.

i sometimes watch my children and imagine them with more family members around.

i sometimes wish you were here.

i sometimes wish i could call you but youre just a child who harbors resentments and holds onto old bad memories from the past.

i sometimes wonder if you even know or understand its me behind every nice action.

i sometimes wish

i sometimes hope

i sometimes dream

i sometimes laugh at it all but inside it kills me...

i sometimes want to write you a letter but you just laugh at them and think its just so funny

i sometimes say things that hurt because the truth hurts

i sometimes love you

i sometimes hate you

i sometimes think to myself how can i make things different because I simply dont deserve thisshit

i sometimes pray you'll grow up sooner than later so I can simply hug you and tell you I'm sorry.

i sometimes fail

i sometimes succeed

i sometimes feel like the only one who cares.. because my husband couldnt care less

i sometimes tell him hes wrong

i sometimes make him care. or it might seem like he cares...

sometimes i gotta force him to care and that just got old.

i always want whats best for everyone and if its best that you ignore me and keep yoourself very far away from here then I guess I'll continue to cry about it until the end of time because i would be lying if i said it didnt bother me and it doesnt affect me.

sometimes i cry about it and thats ok